So, here I am with a 12 week old baby. While I have enjoyed being home with HER, I actually find the majority of my day quite boring. Not that there isn't plenty to do, like feed the baby, change her, play with her, clean, and cook, but to be honest, it is not that exciting. But, for some reason, the thought of not spending every possible moment with my baby is practically unbearable.
I guess that what I am trying to say is as much as I loved my job and miss it whole-heartedly, there is nothing better than staying home with Olivia. I do miss adult interaction, the professional office setting, dressing up everyday, all my friends and co-workers, and believe it or not, I even miss the meetings. Seriously, I do. But, I wouldn't trade this for anything... which is why I finally made the decision to stay home.
Yes, it's true. I quit my job. After nearly 8 years. I never imagined actually being at this point in my life. I was loving everything about my job (minus the 120 mile round-trip commute). I loved being knowledgeable, successful, learning new things every day, solving problems, setting goals, and feeling like I was making a difference and contributing to something "big." I always knew I would eventually have kids, but I can honestly say I never thought about the day that I would quit my job. In fact, I wasn't so sure that I would want to quit. After all, I had worked so hard to get where I was... did I really want to give it all up?
Well, when it came down to it, I just couldn't do it. It was the hardest and yet the easiest decision... all at the same time. It might be hard for some people to understand, but that's how I felt.
Luckily, my new boss is also one of my best friends, and she was SO understanding about it. We spent the last 2 years working side by side through the transition of moving purchasing to the central office in SLC (she was responsible for Cath Lab & Med/Non-Med purchasing, and I was over Surgical Services & Endoscopy). Together we made so many improvements and changes. Then, right before I was due, she was offered a new position over all of Purchasing. I am so glad she was so understanding and supportive. I look up to her a lot and for some reason, her support was important to me. I think the "professional woman" in me wanted validation from another "professional woman"... to reassure me that I wasn't making a stupid decision that I would later regret. Not that I was second guessing my own decision, because I knew it was 100% right for me and my family, but the reassurance felt good for some reason.
It's a little bit of a sad day for me, I guess. Bitter-sweet.
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I totally know where you are coming from (except I wasn't a huge fan of my job)...It gets a little easier being home when they can talk back, but then they talk back!! ;)
Sorry about the bummer, yet good day...
Being a stay at home mom is harder than any job (at least that is what I think)! It does get easier but if you need adult interaction, I only live 5 minutes from you (right??? Do you still live by the golf course) so come and visit! We can chat and talk about our kids...because that is what we do now! :)
It is a hard decision. But you did what you felt was best for you and your family. So you should feel proud about that.
Trust me, once you have more than one child you will be wishing you were back to the days of just one little one.:) And Katy's right, once they start talking back...look out! Hee Hee!
Meagan, I am very sad for me but happy for you. I am so glad that you will get to stay home with Oliva and not miss her growing up!
Oh...My sister had the same feelings. Who knows, maybe someday you can go back. And unlike me ( I wish I would have used my degree for atleast a year or two, but then I thought I would probably have a hard time quiting :( just like this) just be happy with all the difference you did make and that you got that opportunity to go be a career woman. That would be one of my little regrets :( so be happy :)
That's so great! I often wondered if you'd end up going back to work after Olivia was born. You're going to make the best at home mom. Olivia's lucky to have you and Tyler as parents. Good luck. Call me sometime. We'll get together for lunch.
Meagan, it was fun to know you for a couple years. Good luck with everything. Keep in touch, have a nice summer. see ya next year! I have a sudden desire to read old year books....
I am so happy for you. That is a wonderful that you are going to be able to stay at home. I am sure you will miss working, but Olivia will be lucky to have you at home. I am sure you will not regret the decision you have made.
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